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May 31, 2014
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The calm after the storm

Clearly I've been a mess lately. Climaxing on Tues, and healing on Wed.I have no idea why. It's one of the scariest aspects of all this, the way the "crisis" can roar up in literally minutes, with no discernable trigger. Thankfully it can pass just as surprisingly, leaving me exhausted and puzzled but so very very grateful.Today is May Day, a holy day to reflect and celebrate and take on a new focus for the next six weeks, allowing myself to be called to my best self.Yesterday I had to drive to…See More
May 1, 2014
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Apr 28, 2014
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The Beautiful People

Yesterday my eldest son posted on his FB page that a family friend had passed away, a man who had been something of a mentor to him. My son was very shocked by both the death and his reaction to it. He'd been out of contact with the man for a number of years, but in his mind his old friend would always be there.The man was a colleague of my ex husband. We used to attend the same Unitarian Universalist Church together. Sam, the deceased man, was a musician (as is my son) and a write (as am I)…See More
Apr 24, 2014
Eiere commented on Eiere's blog post I'm back and as bewildered as ever
"Thanks for the encouragement! Right now I am going to do the dishes. Probably sing while I do them, a good way to clear the throat chakra. I don't know if I'll respond there or not. Interestingly there was very lately a lengthy discussion…"
Apr 22, 2014
She Who Weaves The Web commented on Eiere's blog post I'm back and as bewildered as ever
""Like I am not going over there to mix it up with them and tell them I can post anything I want...blah blah. I'm not going to derail the thread. I'm going to pick up my thoughts and STFU."This is the most powerful thing you have…"
Apr 22, 2014
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I'm back and as bewildered as ever

This is why I isolate, I can't handle the truth. Or maybe I can't handle opinions?I can't handle something, well, at least not gracefully. I have a life long habit of picking up my toys and going home at the slightest provocation.A few months ago I quit one recovery forum because I felt invisible and ignored and sometimes disrespected and it wasn't healthy for me to participate in that sort of atmosphere. I still go there to read, but I find it better for my mental and emotional well being to…See More
Apr 22, 2014
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Apr 17, 2014
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Follow up required

That is what the letter regarding my mammogram says.They are trying to track down mammograms past to do comparisons, if they can't, they want me to come in for further imaging.What's a girl to do?  Chances are good that there is nothing wrong. Still. It's a little sobering to open that letter. and realize there is no one to tell, to share with, to squeeze my hand and say "it's going to be ok, no matter what"I want someone to squeeze my hand.If I tell people over the phone, or online I will get…See More
Apr 15, 2014
Eiere commented on Eiere's blog post Pardon my lint....more navel gazing
"Thank you so much for letting me know you hear me, see me etc."
Apr 13, 2014
She Who Weaves The Web commented on Eiere's blog post Pardon my lint....more navel gazing
"Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable. The energy must be turning for you. I find your writing and the insight and wisdom you impart wonderful. I don't know if one person connecting with you is enough, but it could be. I worked through…"
Apr 13, 2014
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Pardon my lint....more navel gazing

sometimes the truth makes me squirmy. Here it is.So, I've mentioned before a forum I was a member of for years, and active and involved member. I left because I felt I wasn't valued, wasn't seen. I stopped posting because it was messing with my head to be ignored, and it hurt to have my motives maligned as some were doing. I stopped posting and no one said anything. Maybe they didn't notice. Maybe they were relieved. Probably the former.I still read there sometimes because there are some good…See More
Apr 13, 2014
Eiere commented on Eiere's blog post Went to the dr
"Thank you"
Apr 8, 2014
She Who Weaves The Web commented on Eiere's blog post Went to the dr
"Thank you for sharing. So glad you are receiving some professional care. The journey of a shaman often gives us something to work with that has no easy answers. Physician heal thyself seems to be the call of the day all too often. Blessings on your…"
Apr 8, 2014
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Went to the dr

I am so grateful to finally have health insurance and to be able to go to the dr.I had two appts today.Unfortunately, my condition is not good, but I don't need surgery right now. We can try some meds and see where that takes us. I am glad because I really really want to avoid surgery, but I was thrown for a loop when I found out what the diagnosis is and that there may be NO fix for it at all. Didn't see that one coming.My brain feels solidified right now. I am bone tired from nerves, lack of…See More
Apr 7, 2014
She Who Weaves The Web commented on Eiere's blog post Virtual reality
"Crown - Divine PresenceThroat - Divine WillHeart - Divine LoveYou are flowing... thank you for acknowledging the Mother Earth in your healing..."
Apr 4, 2014

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And so to continue...or "The Spirit is a Movin'"

I didn't give up without a fight.

I probably haven't given up at all really. I've spent years, collectively...decades "working" on spiritual development. Or whatever the appropriate verb is. I've varied the verb as well...acceptance, work, flow, energy, ritual, worship, and on it goes. Reading and testing and trying, and then NOT trying. And making what felt like progress. …


Posted on July 28, 2014 at 8:41pm

I've become so cynical

I need to be more mindful of the company I keep.

I live in an isolated place, and I use the internet as a means to interact with others. The net has much to offer, but like any tool, it must be used wisely.

Lately I have fallen in with some interesting communities. I know I have moaned here about such experiences before, it seems I don't learn. But I've noticed some…


Posted on July 28, 2014 at 11:51am

Planes of reality/recovery

I've been the witness of some nasty cat fights lately in the recovery community. Interestingly they were not fighting over dogma, not over the steps. They concerned...what exactly? I was thinking about it today, as I hiked, and I think it boils down to planes of reality.

Lately I have been on a disordered plane of reality as my mental illness took me into a chaotic tail spin.…


Posted on June 27, 2014 at 3:22pm

Yes, it's me again..

Back to whine about my relationship with my old recovery forum.

Well, back to whine about my self esteem issues really, the recovery forum is a great place. My jealousy is the issue, they are chugging right along without me.

Indeed I checked into my old account to see if any of my buddies had left messages etc or checked up on me...nope.

So anyway...sadly a regular contributor to the forum used drugs the other day. He posted that 4+ years of sobriety were…


Posted on June 3, 2014 at 10:46pm — 2 Comments

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At 2:48pm on February 19, 2014, Frank kwabena said…

Good Day,

How is everything with you, I picked interest on you after going through your short profile and deemed it necessary to write you immediately. I have something very vital to disclose to you, but I found it difficult to express myself here, since it's a public site.Could you please get back to me on:( ) for the full details.

Have a nice day

Thanks God bless.



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